A version of this
recently appeared in my high school alumni magazine. I thought I would share it here.
Although I’ve often referred to my high school years as a
period when I was waiting for my life to start, this makes it sound calm when
it actually was a turbulent time.
My family was going through dramatic changes, and I was as well. But, regardless of the emotional roil
at home, or my after-school job, or among my friends, I had two havens: the
classrooms of the English teacher, Klem, and the French teacher, Gregory. Entering these, I felt
safe.
Compassionate, learned, and funny, these teachers offered me
something that I desperately needed although I didn’t know it at the time. They treated me seriously, and they
talked to me honestly. When I said
something thoughtful they considered it; when I said something ridiculous, they
pointed it out. They acted as if I
was someone who would understand their love of books, culture, and art, and
they validated my own love of reading.
They were some of the first people who talked with me about ideas rather
than at me.
In Klem's class, I also wrote some of my first
poems, and they were horrible (although I didn’t know that at the time
either). But he encouraged
me. He didn’t tell me they were
great, and he didn’t tell me they were terrible. But he made it clear that the effort itself was
worthwhile. I
began to get a more realistic understanding of what it might mean to be a
writer. It would involve more than
mastering grammar, or knowing “cakes are done; people are finished,” it would
require the ability to shape one’s passion and emotions with discipline.
As for Gregory, stepping into his class was like
stepping into a foreign country.
Not because he taught French, but because he loved art, artists, ideas,
and beauty, and he insisted people could actively surround themselves with
these. Outside the school were
McDonalds, Pizza Huts, and malls; in his room were Colette, Camus, and
cathedrals. Paradoxically, this
small space revealed a larger perspective. There was more for us than Fort Wayne, Allen County, and
Indiana. There was Europe. There
was the past. There was a
world of wonders and delights.
Both Gregory and Klem revealed possibilities to me. And, they seemed to see what I could
become rather than what I was (yet something else I needed). They didn’t offer false encouragement
or vapid cheerleading. There are
people who if you say that you want to be an astronaut or a space alien or a
yeti will say, “Great. Go for
it! You can be anything!” This isn’t encouragement; it’s
condescending head-patting. And,
it requires nothing of either involved.
In contrast, I worked hard for these two teachers (mostly), and they
made me want to work hard (always).
Ronald Reagan once said, "Education
is not the means of showing people how to get what they want. Education
is an exercise by means of which enough men, it is hoped, will learn to want
what is worth having." These
two beautiful men helped me learn to want what is worth having. I absolutely believe that thirty years
later I am living a richer, fuller, life because of them.
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